When I spoke those words to you
Who could have predicted the result?
I felt the energy flow through my belly
To my heart and to my throat
I felt it change my body and soul
In a way that’s hard to explain
All I can say is that something shifted
And I am no longer the same
Processing trauma is a bit like doing art
You don’t always know where it’s going
You kind of just have to start
So I started the process of healing
When I spoke those words to you
I know you didn’t understand it
But it really wasn’t about you
I needed to raise my voice
Because trauma taught me to be quiet
It tricked me into giving away my power
But now I know my needs matter
So regardless of what anyone thinks
I can say what I want and need
I do not need your permission
Because my power begins with me
I’m so happy I went through this process
I let go of so much for peace
I now speak in Strength and Humility
And I stand in Truth and Grace
Where you stand is up to you
I’m happy all the same
I only wish you well
And that you’d walk away from your living hell